discouraged but hopeful

i've been here for a week and two days. i have an apartment that is slowly coming together, but is more than livable. i have been job searching on a daily basis for 9 days (not to mention the 6 months before that). i've gone to the beach twice in the last week. i met a new friend last night. and with all of this, i am still discouraged.

i didn't realize the height of my expectations until i got here. i was thinking, since things were going so slowly in Nebraska, that when i got here things would fall right into place. and quickly. don't get me wrong, we found our apartment quickly and moved in as soon as we could (although it was not quick enough). but this job search is just continuous and relentless. i had an interview a couple days ago and i thought it went really well. then today i got a 'thank you' in the mail from them saying they needed someone with more experience. i just feel so inadequate for everything for which i'm applying. i'm so sick of being rejected.

i know i have a lot to offer. but it's just not in the corporate setting. it's not in making a profit. it's in people. it's in relationships. i need to just be patient and persevere. the problem with patience is that it doesn't pay the bills. and the more patience i have, the quicker my money runs out. god help me, but i'm asking for patience.