My First Mother's Day :)

It's Mother's Day, and for the first time I am on both sides of the celebration. This May, I am a mother. My last post was right before I got married, and now six months later, I'm not only happily married but also now, joyfully pregnant. Life is constantly bringing surprises and our Father is constantly bringing blessings. It's crazy because I'm really beginning to bond with my little one growing inside my womb. It has taken me months to not only believe I'm pregnant but to feel the reality of being a carrier of life. First trimester was a hard three months for me. I felt sick almost every day, couldn't feel the baby move, and barely had something worthy to call a baby bump. Once I started feeling better (around 14 weeks) and getting bigger, I was able to get excited about this growing life. I'm now half way through my pregnancy and am feeling my little boy or girl move like crazy. It really is unlike anything else I've ever experienced. It's not so much the physical feeling that is amazing (although it is!), but the emotions that come with each movement are unexplainable. Each night when I go to bed, I feel like I'm "hanging out" with my baby. It's such a sweet time to talk to him/her and to pray for him/her. Each time he/she moves, I get giddy--like I'm falling in love. It's been especially sweet since my husband has been away for work. Although I know I'm never alone because God is with me, I really am now carrying with me another person, another soul, another being. There are two beating hearts within me. Two sets of hands and feet. Four eyes and four ears, detecting light and dark and listening to surrounding noises. My child is experiencing life with me, in the secret of his/her hiding place, tucked safely within me. Never in my life have I had someone this close to me, literally united in everything I do. The closest relationship to this thus far has been the one with my beloved husband. And although that is close, it's so different from what I'm experiencing right now.

I can't wrap my mind around the miracle of life, but I know this for sure; it is a miracle. I am grateful to get to experience the blessing of carrying and stewarding a child of the Creator. He could have chosen any other way to bring into existence people, but He chose this. For goodness sake, He created Adam from the dust and Eve from Adam's rib! And right now, He chose me to carry this precious cargo. He chose me to be a mother and He didn't have to. This Mother's Day, I feel privileged. And even though our little one isn't out of the womb yet, I still am a mother. I can't even imagine what is to come when this one comes out of his/her hiding place. I may just come undone. Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers and mother's to be!