as feathers float

transition. that is the word for my life. once again i am transitioning. into what, i do not know, but nonetheless i am in a place of shifting shadows and constant movement.

i feel like my life is a box of feathers that someone just tossed in the air and i'm watching each feather float slowly to the ground, blow in the wind, and determine its own direction. could be the weirdest place in which i've ever been in my life.

constantly the lord reminds me that this is not my home and i am to wear this world as a loose garment. so lately, i cling to nothing but christ. here are a few reasons i feel like i'm in transition again.

1. my house: two dear friends moved out, and two dear friends moved in...i am still waiting on one unknown roommate
2. my job: i am SO ready for something more challenging. the lord has confirmed that i need to be around people rather than behind a desk, so i am anxiously awaiting new opportunities.
3. my love life: there no longer is one. ha :) yes, this means the lord took my (ex) boyfriend and i in different directions.
4. my next step: i'm now looking into grad schools, seminaries, and biblical programs. i feel the lord calling me to be taught, mentored, and led. my soul is daily being cultivated and i love this growth.
5. my community: many of my dear friends this year have A)gotten married, B)moved to a foreign country for work/missions, or C)have just moved on to the next phase. i too am ready for the next phase...as my community is scattered i feel in a way i have no community. i feel the lord calling me to a deep community where i can serve and be invested in as well. i'm on the search. at this point, i would move for a community and a biblical church ahead of a job. i know the lord will provide when i get to wherever he's calling me.

so now, as the feathers of my life float in the air, i watch and actively wait on the lord to determine their directions. the word of the lord says,
"If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done. God's ways are as hard to discern as the pathways of the wind, and as mysterious as a tiny baby being formed in a mother's womb. Be sure to stay busy and plant a variety of crops, for you never know which will grow--perhaps they all will." Ecclesiastes 11:4-6

up in the air,
lindsey