the after-vacation blues

well, i got home yesterday from my sister's wedding in antigua. we were 17 degrees north of the equator and i got a pretty good tan. it was a crazy week--one i will probably never forget, but i am now exhausted. the wedding was beautiful and it was so good to spend time with my wonderful family.

now one day back into reality, i am semi-depressed. you know that dreadful time after vacation that everyone has? well, i have it right now. i'm stressed out because i have to find an apartment in san diego before i move...but that's hard to do when i'm not there. so i'm taking a huge leap of faith and just going--probably without an apartment. we have a place we could stay for a short while but i don't wanna put her out, so i'd rather have something set up when we got there.

i'm trying not to stress out but money is just so tight and i have no definite plans so i'm just throwing myself into the ocean, hoping not to drown. i am, however, excited to jump in and see where the tide takes me.

i didn't really get to spend much time with god while i was on vacation...which was disappointing but my own fault. i can't believe how much my spiritual life fluctuates depending on the people i am around. i'm ready to find a community in which i can thrive and be encouraged. so now i am working on moving forward with the lord and seeking his will for my life--even if it doesn't make sense. at this point, i don't even feel like i'm making sense. these ramblings come from a tired mind. i will blog later this week about things i learned on my trip. right now, i just need sleep.