loving the law...

wow! i cannot believe that it is almost may and i last blogged at the beginning of april. time is flying by. with each week, comes quicker days and even quicker nights. our time here on earth is just a blink of an eye. in the quickness of life, i rest in the fact that i only have today to think about. we are not promised tomorrow, nor do we really deserve it, but by the grace of god, when i wake up the next morning i can then think about the day before me. this is one thing i've been so thankful for lately--my contentment in the NOW. the lord has really taken my mind and allowed me only to think on what is set before me today.

as i think about what he is doing in my life i only want to think about two things...right now and eternity. i don't ever want to dwell on the past (although i use it to remind myself of the dark places from which i have come). and i don't ever want to day-dream about the future. i only want to be where god has me now and revel in the glory of eternity (which i have to look forward to). i can honestly say i am completely content in what the lord is doing in my life TODAY. it is a roller-coaster with christ, but every day i fall more in love with him regardless of how happy or sad i may be. that is what a relationship is about because feelings can be deceiving and loving someone takes devotion. i have found a new devotion to my jesus. one that renews me.

Psalm 119
"I long to obey your commandments! Renew my life with your goodness."

as i hunger and thirst for truth lately, i find the only satisfying thing is god's law. psalm 119 is all about loving god's law and living in his commandments. i have been eating up this psalm like cheesecake lately. literally, chewing on its words all throughout the day. my heart's cry is through out this psalm and in it i find many answers to my questions. as i learn more about my depravity and absolute need for a savior, i cling to the truth of this psalm. and the truth is that we have NOTHING but his law. his law is good and we should love it. not because we have to, but in response to his unfailing love for us.

"When I learn your righteous laws, I will thank you by living as I should!" v. 7

our only response to god should be absolute obedience and a desire to live out righteous lives daily. once we LEARN his laws and his truth, we have a huge responsibility to speak, live, and breathe truth through out the day. i am greatly challenged by his law. but the more i learn, the more sinful i realize i am, and therefore the more thankful i am for the grace that has been poured out upon me.