expectations

when i was preparing to come to peru, i had no expectations...or that's what i thought. i didn't really know what life here would be like. now that i've been here for a week, i am forming new expectations and goals.

my emotions have been weird lately. i don't really feel like i'm in a different country right now, i'm kinda detached and i'm not sure what to think about things. it might just be a stage...a transition stage, but i fully expect to have ups and downs while i'm here.

i expect to be broken and to be joyful. i expect to be sad one minute and excited the next. i expect this to be the worst and the best time of my life. i expect to be frustrated with the language...which i already am. i don't expect life here to be easy, but i do expect it to be simple. i expect god to reveal himself in the most interesting places and to teach me things i never knew i needed to learn. i expect to cry...a lot. i expect to experience community in a way i never knew existed.

i have goals of learning god's will for my life when i return to the states. increasing the strength of my prayer life. learning how to be raw and real with everyone. sharing in solidarity with the poor. increasing my knowledge of spanish. and much more.

i'm here...in the now...ready for ups and downs. even when i don't understand (literally and mentally) all i can do is praise god...because i'm here. he brought me here, and i don't wanna be anywhere else in the world. there is no other place to be besides in his will.